{"id":1545,"date":"2020-12-03T09:10:27","date_gmt":"2020-12-03T09:10:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/?p=1545"},"modified":"2020-12-17T09:29:57","modified_gmt":"2020-12-17T09:29:57","slug":"tarihi-konak","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/?p=1545","title":{"rendered":"Tarihi Konak"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"wp-block-group\"><div class=\"wp-block-group__inner-container is-layout-flow wp-block-group-is-layout-flow\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-columns is-layout-flex wp-container-core-columns-is-layout-9d6595d7 wp-block-columns-is-layout-flex\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-column is-vertically-aligned-center is-layout-flow wp-block-column-is-layout-flow\" style=\"flex-basis:200%\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-group\"><div class=\"wp-block-group__inner-container is-layout-flow wp-block-group-is-layout-flow\">\n<iframe src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/track\/0C1RaT1eyqvoeqskbaTg3E\" width=\"300\" height=\"80\" frameborder=\"0\" allowtransparency=\"true\" allow=\"encrypted-media\"><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">\u0130stanbul Kandilli\u2019de, penceresinden k\u00f6pr\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnen eski bir kona\u011f\u0131n odas\u0131nda ku\u015f sesleri ile uyand\u0131m bu&nbsp;pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc. Uzun s\u00fcredir g\u00f6rmedi\u011fim arkada\u015flar\u0131m Samed ve Leyla ile yeni ald\u0131klar\u0131 kona\u011f\u0131n bah\u00e7esinde yemek yemi\u015f, neredeyse her \u015feye ne\u015fe ile g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, sohbet koyula\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a da ge\u00e7 yatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Leyla, haki ye\u015fili, geni\u015f yakal\u0131, ince belini daha da g\u00fczel g\u00f6steren, bileklerine kadar uzun bir elbise giymi\u015fti. Tek aksesuar\u0131, anne yadig\u00e2r\u0131 inci kolyesi iken, ayaklar\u0131ndaki bej rengi \u00f6rg\u00fc sandaletler yaz gecesine uygundu. Samed ise her zamanki rengarenk keten g\u00f6mleklerinden birini rahat bir \u015fort ile e\u015fle\u015ftirmi\u015fti. Her ikisi de yan\u0131k tenleri ile nas\u0131l da taze ve \u00f6zg\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorlard\u0131, bu yaz ak\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n esintisinde!&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Yakla\u015f\u0131k bir y\u0131l \u00f6nce e\u015fyalar\u0131 ile birlikte sat\u0131n alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Samed bu kona\u011f\u0131. \u0130lk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fte a\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015f, de\u011ferinin \u00e7ok \u00fcst\u00fcnde bir para \u00f6demi\u015fti. Eski olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen, birka\u00e7 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tadilat ile kendilerine g\u00f6re oturulur hale getirmi\u015f ve bir \u00f6nceki ev sahibinin an\u0131lar\u0131 ile birlikte keyifle ya\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Bu, yeni evlerindeki ilk yazlar\u0131yd\u0131 ve ben de ilk misafirleriydim can dostlar\u0131m\u0131n.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131ndan, d\u00fcn gece i\u00e7kiyi fazla ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anl\u0131yordum. Sabah erken saatler oldu\u011fundan ev halk\u0131 hala uyuyordu. Rahats\u0131z etmemek i\u00e7in ayak parmaklar\u0131m\u0131n ucunda, ses \u00e7\u0131kartmamaya gayret ederek bu g\u00fczel manzaral\u0131 odada dolanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u0130lk kez odan\u0131n i\u00e7indeki e\u015fyalara dikkatli bak\u0131yordum ve sanki g\u00f6z\u00fcme her birinin \u00fczerinde a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k varm\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. &#8216;Eskilikten herhalde.&#8217; diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Ve tam o anda d\u00fcn gece g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm r\u00fcyam\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131m. &nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Neresi oldu\u011fundan tam olarak emin olmamakla birlikte, sanki \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun ge\u00e7ti\u011fi bir odada oldu\u011fum hissindeydim. T\u0131pk\u0131 bu sabahki gibi parlak g\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7eri giriyordu. D\u00fcn geceden kalma, oturmaktan k\u0131r\u0131\u015f k\u0131r\u0131\u015f olmu\u015f siyah keten pantolonumun \u00fczerine f\u0131rlat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 koltu\u011fa&nbsp;benzer eski bir koltuk da r\u00fcyamda pencere kenar\u0131nda duruyordu.<strong>&nbsp;<\/strong>Kap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, i\u00e7eri&nbsp;yirmili ya\u015flar\u0131nda olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen, y\u00fcz\u00fc solgun fakat \u00e7ekici bir gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n girdi. \u00dczerinde kaliteli kuma\u015ftan, karpuz kollu, f\u0131rf\u0131r etekli k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir elbise, ayaklar\u0131nda ise y\u0131lan derisi k\u0131sa topuklu \u015f\u0131k bir ayakkab\u0131 vard\u0131. Omuzlar\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 siyah, g\u00fcr, dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n aralar\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcnen elmas k\u00fcpelerin g\u00fczelli\u011fini \u015fu an bile hat\u0131rl\u0131yordum. Ya\u015f\u0131ndan beklenmeyecek yava\u015fl\u0131kta, narin ad\u0131mlarla odaya girdi; koltu\u011fa oturdu ve omuzunun \u00fcst\u00fcnden bana bakmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ne bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ne de belirgin bir ifade vard\u0131. Yan\u0131na gitme ve ona dokunma iste\u011fim a\u011f\u0131r bassa da&nbsp;aram\u0131zda bask\u0131n bir uzakl\u0131k hissetti\u011fimden r\u00fcyamda bile buna cesaret edemedim. Sonra.. Sonras\u0131 yok, ne kadar zorlasam da zihnimi, gerisini getiremiyordum r\u00fcyan\u0131n.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Zihnim d\u00fcn gecenin r\u00fcyas\u0131 ile me\u015fgulken, ev halk\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f uyand\u0131 ve rutin bir kahvalt\u0131 tela\u015f\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131. D\u00fcn masadaki \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit mezelerin, buz gibi rak\u0131n\u0131n yerini; bu sabah nefis kokan sahanda g\u00f6z yumurta, ev yap\u0131m\u0131 vi\u015fne re\u00e7eli ve s\u00fct kokan peynirler alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sofran\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc bile i\u015ftah\u0131m\u0131 kabartmaya yetmi\u015f, bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da taba\u011f\u0131m\u0131 silip s\u00fcp\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Sigaralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz de keyifle g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorduk birbirimize.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">\u2018Nas\u0131l uyudun?\u2019 diye sordu sak\u0131z beyaz\u0131 g\u00f6mle\u011finin i\u00e7inde t\u00fcm zerafeti ile Leyla.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">\u2018Sanki r\u00fcya i\u00e7inde ba\u015fka bir r\u00fcya gibiydi.\u2019 diye s\u00f6ze ba\u015flayarak, d\u00fcn gece g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm tuhaf d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ben anlatt\u0131k\u00e7a Leyla Samed\u2019e ka\u00e7amak g\u00f6zlerle bak\u0131yor, Samed ise sandalyesinde rahats\u0131z hareketler ile ileri geri sallan\u0131yordu. R\u00fcyan\u0131n sonuna geldi\u011fimde ise az \u00f6nceki keyifli, mutlu y\u00fczlerinin yerini, endi\u015feli ifadeler alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">\u2018Ne oluyor yahu, ne bu gerginlik?\u2019 diye sormamla, Samed\u2019in anlatmaya ba\u015flamas\u0131 ve Leyla\u2019n\u0131n \u00e7ay koymak bahanesi ile apar topar mutfa\u011fa ka\u00e7mas\u0131 bir oldu.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">\u015ea\u015fk\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle Leyla\u2019n\u0131n arkas\u0131ndan bakarken, Samed\u2019in y\u00fcksek sesi ile masaya geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. \u2018A\u011fabey mahallelinin dedikodusuna g\u00f6re, bu evde bizden \u00f6nce oturan ailenin \u00e7ok g\u00fczel, sakin huylu, \u00fcniversite okumu\u015f bir k\u0131z\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck mahalle, t\u00fcm \u00e7ocuklar bebeklikten beri birlikte oynuyor; bu k\u0131z da bu kadar erke\u011fin aras\u0131nda gitmi\u015f yan kona\u011f\u0131n hizmet\u00e7isinin o\u011fluna a\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015f. Aile zengin, k\u00fclt\u00fcrl\u00fc; lay\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcr de verir mi g\u00fcl k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131? K\u0131smet olamam\u0131\u015flar bu iki gen\u00e7 birbirine, k\u0131z da hi\u00e7 evlenmemi\u015f. Gel zaman git zaman, k\u0131z iyice i\u00e7ine kapanm\u0131\u015f. Evde perdeleri a\u00e7m\u0131yor, karanl\u0131kta oturmak&nbsp;istiyor, do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn yemek dahi yemiyor, kimse ile g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcyormu\u015f. Gencecik k\u0131z neredeyse t\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc odas\u0131nda tek ba\u015f\u0131na karanl\u0131kta ge\u00e7iriyormu\u015f.&#8217;diye anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Ben b\u00f6yle bir ye\u015fil\u00e7am hikayesinin sonunun nereye ba\u011flanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 biraz da s\u0131k\u0131larak beklerken, Samed&#8217;in dudaklar\u0131ndan son c\u00fcmlesi d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc: &#8216;Zavall\u0131 k\u0131z t\u00fcm g\u00fcn odas\u0131nda oturuyormu\u015f dedim ya a\u011fabey, i\u015fte o oda d\u00fcn gece senin konaklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n oda!\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Son c\u00fcmle ile \u015fok olmu\u015ftum. \u0130\u00e7imdeki s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yerini \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa b\u0131rak\u0131rken; hafif\u00e7e \u00f6ne e\u011filerek, \u2018Ne duruyorsun, devam etsene Samed, iyice merakland\u0131m \u015fimdi\u2019 dedim.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Beni k\u0131rmayan dostum, zaman kazanmak istercesine, \u00e7ay\u0131ndan bir yudum ald\u0131, yutkundu ve isteksizce konu\u015fmas\u0131na devam etti. \u2018Bir yaz g\u00fcn\u00fc ailesi Silivri\u2019deki yazl\u0131klar\u0131ndan d\u00f6nd\u00fcklerinde hayatlar\u0131n\u0131n en k\u00f6t\u00fc an\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015flar. 27 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki k\u0131zlar\u0131; k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, f\u0131rf\u0131rl\u0131 elbisesini b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6zenle giymi\u015f, kula\u011f\u0131na elmas k\u00fcpelerini takm\u0131\u015f, aya\u011f\u0131na topuklu ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, t\u0131rnaklar\u0131n\u0131 boyam\u0131\u015f, makyaj\u0131n\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015f halde yata\u011f\u0131na uzanm\u0131\u015f ve bileklerini kesmi\u015f!\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Son kelimeler ile birlikte masaya tarif edilemez bir kasvet yay\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130ki arkada\u015f birbirimize bak\u0131yorduk; onun g\u00f6zleri k\u0131s\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, benim a\u011fz\u0131m a\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u2018Ben d\u00fcn gece intihar eden bu gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n hayaleti mi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm yani Samed\u2019 diye sordum gayri ihtiyari. Elinde taze \u00e7ay ile i\u00e7eri gelen Leyla \u2018Yeter art\u0131k!\u2019\u2019 diye ikimize de \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131; \u2018Daha fazla bu konuda konu\u015fmak, hatta tek kelime dahi duymak istemiyorum. Korkuyorum, anlam\u0131yor musunuz, korkuyorum!\u2019 diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 g\u00f6zleri dolu dolu.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Leyla\u2019n\u0131n gergin dudaklar\u0131 ve korku dolu g\u00f6zleri bizi susturdu. O kahvalt\u0131 masas\u0131n\u0131n etraf\u0131nda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz de sustuk. Sustuk, sus pus olduk. Kahvalt\u0131 sonras\u0131, t\u00fcm nazik \u0131srarlara ra\u011fmen kahvemi bile i\u00e7meden odama \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ile d\u00fcn uyudu\u011fum yata\u011fa bakt\u0131m. Sanki g\u00fczel, gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n bu yata\u011fa uzanm\u0131\u015f; siyah, dalgal\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa serilmi\u015f; ruju dudaklar\u0131nda, makyaj\u0131 ise y\u00fcz\u00fcnde da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f; k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 giysisi kan i\u00e7indeymi\u015f gibi geldi. G\u00f6zlerimi k\u0131rp\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131m ve odaya tekrar bakt\u0131m. Bu sefer de yata\u011fa, hatta t\u00fcm odaya \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kokusu sinmi\u015f gibiydi. Koku daha da belirginle\u015ftik\u00e7e,&nbsp;i\u00e7 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 ile alelacele e\u015fyalar\u0131m\u0131 toparlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:15px\">Elimde kahverengi deri \u00e7antam, t\u00fcm k\u0131yafetlerim ve ki\u015fisel e\u015fyalar\u0131m i\u00e7inde dertop olmu\u015f halde kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131karken, son kez bu kasvetli odaya ve geni\u015f yata\u011fa uzun uzun bakt\u0131m. Ve o an gen\u00e7 kad\u0131ndan, tarihi konaktan, h\u00fcsrana u\u011fram\u0131\u015f aileden ve orada ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f t\u00fcm an\u0131lardan \u00f6z\u00fcr dileyerek, d\u00fcn gece uyudu\u011fum oday\u0131 bir daha gelmemek \u00fczere terk ettim.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size\"><em>Eyl\u00fcl, 2018.. Kandilli\u2019de tarihi bir kona\u011f\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki tahta, rengi a\u011farm\u0131\u015f bankta oturuyorum. Kafam\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, kona\u011f\u0131n ikinci kat\u0131ndaki pencereden bana bakan ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n ile g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geliyorum. Hafif bir ba\u015f selam\u0131 ve g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ile zarif \u2018merhaba\u2019s\u0131n\u0131 kabul ediyorum kalbime. \u0130stanbul\u2019da \u00f6\u011flen saatleri, sokaklar kalabal\u0131k ve g\u00fcne\u015f \u00e7\u0131plak kollar\u0131m\u0131 yak\u0131yor. 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Aradan iki y\u0131l \u00fc\u00e7 ay ge\u00e7iyor ve bug\u00fcn bu \u00f6yk\u00fc d\u00fczeltilmi\u015f haliyle merakl\u0131s\u0131 ile yeniden bulu\u015fuyor.&nbsp;<\/em>\ud83c\udf3f<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-columns are-vertically-aligned-bottom is-layout-flex wp-container-core-columns-is-layout-9d6595d7 wp-block-columns-is-layout-flex\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-column is-vertically-aligned-bottom is-layout-flow wp-block-column-is-layout-flow\" style=\"flex-basis:100%\"><\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p class=\"text-justify\">\u0130stanbul Kandilli\u2019de, penceresinden k\u00f6pr\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnen eski bir kona\u011f\u0131n odas\u0131nda ku\u015f sesleri ile uyand\u0131m bu&nbsp;pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc. 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