Ben bu foto\u011frafa bak\u0131nca simsiyah rengi de\u011fil, onlarca y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Her biri birbirinden parlak, piril piril! Sanki bu gece \u00f6zel olarak benim i\u00e7in parl\u0131yorlar. Her gece b\u00f6ylesine g\u00fczel miydi bu y\u0131ld\u0131zlar, yoksa bu gece keyiften sarho\u015f mu oldum ben? <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kom\u015funun bah\u00e7esindeki \u0131hlamur a\u011fac\u0131ndan izinsizce bir tutam kopard\u0131m, cam barda\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde duman\u0131 t\u00fcten s\u0131cak suya att\u0131m. O g\u00fczelim bitki, bir yandan mis gibi kokusunu bir yandan da safran rengini c\u00f6mert\u00e7e salarken; ben de bizim bah\u00e7edeki a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na uzand\u0131m. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Alt\u0131mda en az 25 y\u0131ll\u0131k, u\u00e7lar\u0131 yer yer s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ama mis gibi sabun kokan bir \u00f6rt\u00fc. Anne kuca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bu huzurlu kokusuna kendimi b\u0131rakt\u0131m ve berrak g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc seyrederek hayal kurdum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, 15 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011funun kurdu\u011fu hayallerinin bug\u00fcn ne kadar\u0131 ger\u00e7ek oldu diye.. \u2018Ben ne istedim ve ne ald\u0131m\u2019\u0131 terazide tartt\u0131m. Tam bu anda, o simsiyah g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde parlak bir y\u0131ld\u0131z bana dilek \u015fans\u0131 sundu! \u2018Hadi bakal\u0131m\u2019 dedi, \u2018dile benden ne dilersen!\u2019 Y\u00fcz\u00fcmde bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme, ellerim kalbimde, sonsuz bir \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr duygusu ile dile\u011fimi tuttum. Son birka\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131r dile\u011fim hep ayn\u0131.. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bug\u00fcn bu evimdeki son gecem; anne kuca\u011f\u0131na, onun hissettirdi\u011fi huzura, g\u00fcven duygusuna doyulur mu? T\u00fcm a\u011fustos ay\u0131n\u0131 neredeyse burada gecirdim, yine yetmedi.. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u0131cac\u0131k \u0131hlamurum bitti, tatilin sonu geldi. Yar\u0131n sanki hi\u00e7 eksilenler olmam\u0131\u015f gibi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc yine b\u00f6ylesine \u015fefkatle kucaklayacak bu \u015fehri. Tabii bunun k\u0131ymetini g\u00f6rebileni, kendi kalbinin g\u00fczelli\u011fini ya\u015fama \u015fans\u0131n\u0131 elde etmi\u015f olan\u0131 kucaklayacak..\ud83d\udcab<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7ok dinlenmi\u015f, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, fazlal\u0131klar\u0131ndan \u00f6zg\u00fcrle\u015fmi\u015f ayr\u0131l\u0131yorum buradan. Bir s\u00fcredir yoktum; nedeni i\u00e7imi dinlemek biraz kendimle konu\u015fmakt\u0131. \u00c7ok iyi geldi. \ud83d\ude4f\ud83c\udffc<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nefes ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m her ana, hayat\u0131n bana verdi\u011fi t\u00fcm iyilik ve g\u00fczelliklere \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr \ud83d\udda4<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Anamur, A\u011fustos 2021<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Ben bu foto\u011frafa bak\u0131nca simsiyah rengi de\u011fil, onlarca y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Her biri birbirinden parlak, piril piril! Sanki bu gece \u00f6zel olarak benim […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1961,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1928","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1928","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1928"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1928\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1929,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1928\/revisions\/1929"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1961"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1928"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1928"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1928"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}