D\u0131\u015far\u0131da lapa lapa kar ya\u011f\u0131yor. \u015e\u00f6minenin yan\u0131nday\u0131m. Sol taraf\u0131m s\u0131cac\u0131k, sa\u011f taraf\u0131m buz gibi so\u011fuk. Bu havada saatlerdir d\u0131\u015far\u0131da y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm i\u00e7in ne yaz\u0131k ki hala dengeye gelememi\u015f v\u00fccudum. Bu ayr\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131 da sevmiyor de\u011filim asl\u0131nda. Bana ger\u00e7eklik alg\u0131s\u0131ndan kopmamam\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ger\u00e7eklik alg\u0131s\u0131! G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u00fcnyas\u0131, sosyal medya ile birlikte hayat\u0131m\u0131za yeni yeni giren bu ve buna benzer terimleri incelerken; ben sizi daha bizden, i\u00e7imizden, asl\u0131nda hepimizden olan Algernon ve Charlie ile tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmak istiyorum bug\u00fcn. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Algernon ve Charlie\u2019nin birbirini besleyen 9 ayl\u0131k ser\u00fcvenine dahil olmak, benim hayata bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015ftan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. Hani vard\u0131r ya \u2018Bir kitap okudum, hayat\u0131m de\u011fi\u015fti\u2019 dedi\u011fimiz kitaplar; i\u015fte \u2018Algernon\u2019a \u00c7i\u00e7ekler\u2019 de benim i\u00e7in \u00f6yle oldu. Hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle bir beklenti ya da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ile ba\u015flamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kapl\u0131, ince ve g\u00f6steri\u015fsiz kitap; okumay\u0131 bitirip, arka kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda geldi, hayat\u0131m\u0131n ortas\u0131na kuruldu ve en sevdi\u011fim ikinci kitap olma taht\u0131na oturdu! (Birinci hala \u015eibumi. Buradan Travenian\u2019a sevgi ve deli zekas\u0131na sonsuz sayg\u0131.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6yle g\u00fczel ki Charlie\u2019nin her bir an\u0131.. Sanki ben de onunla birlikte ya\u015fad\u0131m t\u00fcm ser\u00fcvenini. \u0130ni\u015flerini, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, aynaya bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131.. Sadece Charlie ya\u015fatt\u0131 bu duyguyu desem Algernon\u2019a haks\u0131zl\u0131k etmi\u015f olurum asl\u0131nda. Zira \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f yolunu Charlie\u2019den \u00f6nce bulan Algernon\u2019un, birka\u00e7 ay sonra kendi pisli\u011finde yatmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zlerim ya\u015fl\u0131, burnumu \u00e7eke \u00e7eke okudum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
D\u00fcr\u00fcst olmam gerekirse, kitab\u0131 okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ilk 2-3 sayfan\u0131n bask\u0131 hatas\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm; zira herhangi bir olay\u0131n b\u00f6ylesine g\u00fczel ve i\u00e7inden anlat\u0131labilece\u011fine ne yaz\u0131k ki edebiyat bilgim yetmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kitap ilerledik\u00e7e anlad\u0131m, anlad\u0131k\u00e7a be\u011fendim, be\u011fendik\u00e7e daha severek ve kah g\u00fclerek kah a\u011flayarak okumaya devam ettim. Charlie yeni hayat\u0131na dair basamaklar\u0131 ke\u015ffettik\u00e7e, ben de onunla birlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm sanki yeni yollar\u0131. Hikaye i\u00e7ime akt\u0131 ba\u015ftan sona.. Hele ilk virg\u00fcl\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc zaman, o g\u00fcnk\u00fc ilerleme raporunun tamam\u0131n\u0131 virg\u00fcl ile yazmas\u0131 beni kahkahalara bo\u011fdu! Her sat\u0131r\u0131nda kendimden, kendi yollar\u0131mdan, \u00e7\u0131kmaz sokaklar\u0131mdan, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \/ indi\u011fim basamaklardan bir yer buldum. O ya\u015fad\u0131, ben okudum. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kitab\u0131 ipucu vermeden k\u0131saca anlat deseniz, akl\u0131ma \u2018d\u00fc\u015fme\u2019 fiili gelir. \u00d6yle ki d\u00fc\u015fene g\u00fcleriz; ben kendim de d\u00fc\u015fsem, ba\u015fkas\u0131 da d\u00fc\u015fse her zaman \u00e7ok g\u00fclerim. Fakat yere d\u00fc\u015fenin az \u00f6nce bir kemoterapiden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bilgisine sahip olsak, yine ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde g\u00fcler miyiz? Charlie\u2019nin hikayesi de tam olarak \u00f6yle bence. Asl\u0131nda yer yer \u00e7ok komik ama o komedinin alt\u0131nda yatan saf ve ger\u00e7ek bilgiye ula\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a, g\u00fclme g\u00fcd\u00fcs\u00fc yerini h\u00fczne ve hem Charlie hem Algernon hem de yazara sonsuz bir sayg\u0131ya b\u0131rak\u0131yor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Algernon\u2019a \u00c7i\u00e7ekler\u2019i okurken, baz\u0131 sat\u0131r aralar\u0131nda Great Gatsby\u2019i kitab\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131m kendimce. Scott Fitzgerald da t\u0131pk\u0131 Daniel Keyes gibi hayat\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftiren bir sahne kurgulam\u0131\u015f hikayesinde: O b\u00fcy\u00fck, muhte\u015fem g\u00f6z al\u0131c\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7ekler ile s\u00fcslenmi\u015f tokas\u0131, \u0131\u015f\u0131l \u0131\u015f\u0131l tak\u0131lar\u0131 ve s\u00fcsl\u00fc elbisesi ile Daisy Buchanan bir g\u00fcn hamile oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenir. Ve kemik rengi, dantel eldivenli zarif elini karn\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, g\u00f6zleri kapat\u0131r ve bir dilek diler: \u2018Umar\u0131m ki evlad\u0131m bir k\u0131z olur ve yine umar\u0131m ki aptal bir k\u0131z olur\u2019 der. Nefes al\u0131r ve yava\u015f\u00e7a nefesini verdikten sonra, h\u00fcz\u00fcn dolu g\u00f6zleri ile \u2018\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir kad\u0131na verilmi\u015f en b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6d\u00fcl aptal olmas\u0131d\u0131r.\u2019 diye devam eder s\u00f6zlerine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n