Annem gelince b\u00fct\u00fcn ev g\u00fczel kokuyor, odan\u0131n ortas\u0131na bir kasa Anamur \u00e7ile\u011fi b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n gibi. Ya da ne bileyim en olgunundan bir Adana karpuzu kesmi\u015fsin de tam g\u00f6be\u011fini yiyormu\u015fsun gibi.. Hem tatl\u0131 hem de ferah. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Onun geli\u015fi ile u\u00e7u\u015f u\u00e7u\u015f oluyor i\u00e7im. Ayaklar\u0131m havalan\u0131yor yerden. Dedem annemi sevmez. Beni hi\u00e7 sevmez. Annemi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bana k\u0131z\u0131yor. \u2018Deli k\u0131z yere bas\u2019 diyor; yere bas. Hep yere basmam\u0131 istiyor. Hi\u00e7 \u2018kanatlan k\u0131z\u0131m\u2019 demiyor ya da \u2018u\u00e7 k\u0131z\u0131m\u2019. Bana okulda yer\u00e7ekimini \u00f6\u011frettiler ama beni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken me\u011ferse yer\u00e7ekimi de\u011fil, dedemmi\u015f. Ama dedem bir tek beni \u00e7ekiyor a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya, boklu Zehra\u2019y\u0131 hep yukar\u0131 itiyor. Belki de Zehra\u2019ya yer\u00e7ekimi i\u015flemiyordur, onu g\u00f6k \u00e7ekiyordur yukar\u0131. Bilmem.. Ama bence gene de boklu Zehra!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bak\u0131yorum. Bizim mahallenin k\u0131zlar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131daki kedici Feride\u2019nin evinin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki yerden y\u00fckse\u011fe oturmu\u015f, y\u00fczleri bizim eve d\u00f6n\u00fck \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7ekirdek \u00e7itliyor. Onlara g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6stermek istiyorum. Annem kim bilir Ankara\u2019dan neler getirdi bana. D\u00fcn gece boklu Zehra anac\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n kuca\u011f\u0131ndan inmek bilmedi\u011finden veremedi hediyemi tabii bana. Can\u0131m benim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Beklemeye dayanamayaca\u011f\u0131m art\u0131k, hediyelerimi almak i\u00e7in gizli gizli annemin yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sobal\u0131 odaya gidiyorum. Oyunca\u011f\u0131ma bak\u0131p, vallahi geri koyaca\u011f\u0131m. Almak niyetinde de\u011filim.
Sobal\u0131 odan\u0131n ortas\u0131nda kahverengi, suni deriden a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k koca bavul. Hani \u015fu kapan\u0131nca \u015fifreli olanlardan, ma\u015fallah hangar gibi. Girsem i\u00e7ine, az\u0131c\u0131k k\u0131vr\u0131lsam, uyurum o denli b\u00fcy\u00fck. \u0130\u00e7i annem gibi kokuyor. Nas\u0131l anlatsam, \u00e7ikolata, kahve, Viva Cappio parf\u00fcmkar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 gibi bir koku, annemin bavul kokusu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Annem gelir gelmez bavulunu bo\u015faltm\u0131\u015f; sadece evde giydi\u011fi, ye\u015fil \u00e7i\u00e7ek desenli bir uzun elbise b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f geride. Elbiseyi oldu\u011fu yerden al\u0131yorum ve kollar\u0131n\u0131 boynuma sar\u0131yorum. Etekleri yerleri s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcyor, hi\u00e7 umurumda de\u011fil. Annemin bavul kokusunu i\u00e7ime \u00e7ekiyorum. Tam o s\u0131rada sokaktan boklu Zehra\u2019n\u0131n karga gibi g\u00fclme sesi geliyor. Geriye yat\u0131r\u0131nca g\u00f6zleri kapanan, yukar\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131nca mavi mavi \u00e7ipil gibi g\u00f6zleri ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n et bebe\u011fi, kedici Feride\u2019nin evinin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki yerden y\u00fckse\u011fe oturmu\u015f, y\u00fczleri bizim eve d\u00f6n\u00fck \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7ekirdek \u00e7itliyen mahallenin k\u0131zlar\u0131na g\u00f6steriyor. Hava at\u0131yor boklu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pencereden sark\u0131p onlar\u0131 izlerken\u00a0sobal\u0131 odan\u0131n\u00a0kap\u0131s\u0131\u00a0a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor. Annem banyodan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f; sa\u00e7lar\u0131 \u0131slak, hatta bir k\u0131sm\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcne yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, tertemiz Hac\u0131 \u015eakir sabunu kokan\u00a0havlulara sar\u0131nm\u0131\u015f. Oldu\u011fum yerden anneme do\u011fru meyil ediyorum.\u00a0Ayn\u0131 anda o da bir h\u0131\u015f\u0131m “Kalk k\u0131z, k\u0131racan\u00a0can\u0131m\u00a0bavulu” diye k\u0131\u015fk\u0131\u015fl\u0131yor beni.\u00a0Boynumdan elbisesini \u00e7ekerken, ayn\u0131 anda sol el bile\u011fimden\u00a0\u00e7ekip\u00a0sobal\u0131 odadan\u00a0d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor beni.\u00a0Olsun, o s\u0131rada\u00a0\u00e7ikolata, kahve,\u00a0Viva\u00a0Cappio\u00a0parf\u00fcm\u00a0kar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u00a0kokan \u0131slak sa\u00e7lar\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcyor y\u00fcz\u00fcme.\u00a0Annemin kokusu, annemin bavul kokusu.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayal meyal hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m an\u0131lar\u0131mla yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u00f6yk\u00fc bu. Ortaokul sonu ya da lise ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 zamanlar\u0131ndan kalma. Hikaye kurmaca olsa da ki\u015filer olduklar\u0131 yerdeler. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Annem gelince b\u00fct\u00fcn ev g\u00fczel kokuyor, odan\u0131n ortas\u0131na bir kasa Anamur \u00e7ile\u011fi b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n gibi. Ya da ne bileyim en olgunundan bir Adana karpuzu kesmi\u015fsin de tam g\u00f6be\u011fini yiyormu\u015fsun gibi.. Hem […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2203,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2202","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2202","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2202"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2202\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2206,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2202\/revisions\/2206"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2203"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2202"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2202"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.burcutarhan.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2202"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
<\/em>Mart, 1997. Bizim mahalle; kedici Feride’nin yan\u0131ndaki (kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fil) beyaz demir parmakl\u0131klar\u0131 olan iki katl\u0131, b\u00fcy\u00fck avlulu m\u00fcstakil ev. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n